Tuesday, April 07, 2009

It's a heart problem

Every year, around 32 million people world wide suffer from heart attack. Around half of the fatal attack victims die before reaching hospital. So many people with the heart problem.
After sometimes, I become aware about heart problem with people around me. Different from the first heart problem, the cause of the second heart problem is something (read: someone) from outside of our system. I saw many friends crying or shouting. They are immobilized, tormented, paralyzed by their heart problem.
In many times, we still can live without vision or objectives for our life. At least we can pretend nothing's wrong with our system and we can continue with our 'beautiful regular repetitive days'. But when our heart is attacked by issues and problem, many of us cannot stand it. We want to get away from it immediately, we want to be healed as soon as possible because usually it hurts like hell. So some of us go for instant medicines, which are proven only can give a temporary fake solution.
What counts is who we are. This fast new world always tells us about changing. But I guess, we need something unchangeable inside. The stable core to be an anchor in raging sea of life.
I read a story about $100 note. In short, although the money is new or has been dumped to dirt, the value is still $100. I believe our stable core is our value. So it is important to make our value in line with the principle value. It is not what we say, what we wear, or our fake smile *sincere smile is ok :)*, or our money which are important.

No one can predict what will happen in the future. But I'm sure, the happiness and sadness are all in our heart. We only have one heart so we must be brave to embrace the future. I always tell a story about some one who crosses the road. He knows when he reaches other side of the road, he can eat a super dooper terrific delicious mouth watering ice cream. But as he crosses the road, the possibility of him being hit by a car also becomes real.
Every one wants to eat the ice cream. But some of us decide not to cross the road, some of us cross the road and hit by a car and after that don't want to cross again or even worse, some of us hope the ice cream guy will deliver the ice cream to us. But whatever our decision is, the fact will remain the same, happiness and sadness stays in same box. You cannot find happiness if you reject your sadness.
Again, what inside is important. It will need a big heart to forgive, it will need a secure heart to trust someone. We need to love and respect ourselves before we can love and respect others. Fill your cup first before you can fill some one's cup.

It is almost one month since the new year and 6 months since I left my family. For some, maybe it is not a big deal go somewhere alone and start things over again. For me, well... I never imagine I can go here by my own, with no one's help. Still many to adjust and compromise, hopefully everything will go well and nice :) I will be brave to embrace the upcoming but this time I will let Him stands by my side, be my might and my high tower. I won't make the same mistake again!
The Phoenix has reborn from the ashes...

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